Sudden Thought

I know that one day, my decision will make sense. I will surely thank myself for leaving LS. And when the time comes that I'm ready to go back, there will be no turning back anymore since within me I know how it feels to lose something you know you want in the first place. But for now, i will focus in everything that i have in my plate. I am grateful that i have this new chance to explore new things. FOCUS + DETERMINATION + GOALS... bring it on dear self!


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20 Facts About Me

I joined the bandwagon! :)) 1 day ko inisip to! 

1.     I love the green tea and peppermint flavors! I also love spicy food!  

2.     Pasta and chicken combo lover… 6ever!

3.     I love drinking water! I love drinking fountains! (I miss the drinking fountain at UST TYK. My ever favorite!)

4.     Coffee makes me happy.  I can’t live without coffee it will make me cranky and bitchy if I don’t have a dose of coffee in my system.

5.     I can recognize faces easily but I have a hard time recalling names.

6.     I love poetry.

7.     My curiosity can/will kill me. HAHA

8.     FRIENDS, Big Bang Theory and Pretty Little Liars addict.

9.     I love my PAMANGKINS! They will always be the cutest kids in my eyes! <3

10. Certified home buddy. I can stay at home for months as long as I have the ff: Internet, books and TV.

11. I easily fall in love but I can also easily fall out of love.

12. I’m afraid of dogs, cats or any animal with fur! (but I’m against animal cruelty)

13.  Movie houses make me sleepy. So if the movie does not appeal to me, I usually sleep and wake up when the movie is about end! Haha

14. I can’t sleep during road trips but plane trips actually doze me to sleep.  Boat trips make me dizzy!

15.  I want to become a detective. I usually stalk people! Haha

16.  My NO means a real NO and my YES means a real YES.  I usually don’t accept favors when I don’t want to do it.

17.  I smell my hair all the time!

18. I don’t like food places without proper exhaust fan!  

19. Isopropyl alcohol is my blood life.

20.  Entering the monastery actually crosses my mind from time to time and the only congregation that I like is the St. Paul of Chartes. LOL

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Doubts

My mind goes a little louder since last week. I know, patience is a virtue but the wait is killing me; it makes me exhausted and frustrated at the same time. Plus, it makes me question my decision of leaving LS. I keep on asking myself, "Would i be in a better position NOW if i continued my studies?" last month, i knew i did the right thing BUT now, it keeps on pushing me to tell myself that I have made a very bad decision once again. How can i even go back to school if they have finished taking the first half? how can i go back if i already wasted almost two month doing nothing but for self-pleasure? it kills me not knowing what to do and how to remedy the situation. All i know is that one day everything will be alright and everything will fall back to their right places. Patience is a virtue Mayyeng and i need to erase all the doubts my situation has been giving. God will provide. God will make a way for me to get back on track.

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(did not proofread this post)

because i said i would

I WILL TOP THAT EXAM! 

I CAN DO THIS!

Let it go

My very logical realisation.  Posting this to remind me that there is no turning back now. Let it go yeah gurl. 

P.S. Thank you Kuya Mark for listening to my rants! HAHA!

Ending My Misery

Every day I dread for your actions but it kills me every time I see your name appears.
It is as if it reminds me of how stupid I can be,
For feeling so intense for a person whom I just met.
I want to concentrate in achieving my goals.
But how can I do that if you destroy my mood?
I will be selfish for now.
I will tell what I feel and think is best for me.
I just really want to end my misery.

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Amends

"Because I want to be found. And I hope it will be you----who finds me." Lang Leav

My exact feelings! HAHA! Lang Leav never fails to capture what I feel.

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